Friday, October 26, 2007 ; 9:21 PM {♥}
The last day of school flew by.
It was a day of fun, laughter, tears, headaches, sore eyes and more tears.
I went to school in a good mood. It didn't feel like the last day. But then, the graduation celebration came and it hit me as they kept saying "This is goodbye". Is it really just goodbye now? After all these time we've spent together, I do not feel that everything will all end with just a goodbye. No, this is just a new beginning, for all of us.
Even though I will not be able to attend the same classes as everyone and be in the same class like usual. Even though I cannot argue with Moch who keeps crapping constantly in front of me. Even though I can't kick her chair when I'm irritated and tease her about how she's so paranoid over results. Even though I can't hear Tongs and HangYin laughing at me and Moch as we fight. Even though I cannot fall asleep without Tongs noticing and later telling her off for not waking me. Even though I cannot hear Eunice and Charmaine singing a Lin Junjie song in the middle of class and turn back to join them. Even though I cannot turn around and crap about how Charmaine and Chih Siong are together. Even though I cannot hear Eunice squeal over Pocky and join her in missing MengMeng. Even though I cannot sit in my usual sit and draw anymore.
This is not the end.
Even though I cannot shout over to Jay Tee during lessons to comment about how Moch is killing me. Even though I cannot waltz over to Maureen and talk about how she shows favouritism towards Jay Tee. Even though I cannot laugh at Gillian and Tong's conversation. Even though I cannot make everyone laugh because I laughed too loudly. Even though I cannot make fun of Jinx and hear her talk about how she loves me. Even though I can't hear Yong Jing crapping about my "Goong". Even though I can't lend Sara anymore comics. Even though I can't step on Zongyi's feet anymore. Even though I can't get bugged by Richard. Even though I can't get poked by Yong Jing for not sitting in the right posture. Even though I can't call ShiKai good friend anymore. Even though I can't run to the parade square in fear of being late with the Birdies & Rockies. Even though I can't watch Moch finish off two plates of spaghetti with ease. Even though I can't be in two Fahrion anymore.
This is just our beginning.
Sure, we are all chargning towards our own future and dreams at full speed. But if spending the two years together just leads to ending friendships then what was the purpose? What was the point of us different individuals coming together as a whole? The point of coming to Fahrion was so that everyone of us leaves an impact on each others' lives. The point was to form a connection that wouldn't break easily and can never be forgotten.
We have achieved this, I'm sure.
The seperation is just a test for everyone. And even though I'm sure keeping our bonds safe won't be as easy as it had slwas been for us now, I know we can make it. That's because we will never be able to forget one another. I'm sure I couldn't forget Fahrion even if I tried. You have all changed me.
To tell the truth, I was never an outspoken girl. Shocked? It's true. I was timid and shy in the past even though I was rough with the guys, I never dared to really speak up. Instead, I just talked behind the shadows. But after joining Fahrion, everyone changed me. I wanted to talk, to share my views, I didn't mind embarassment anymore. I am able to talk and laugh loudly. Why? Because I have no fear of embarassing myself in front of you all. You know me and I know you all. Embarassment didn't seem hard anymore. We would ust laugh it off together as we retell some funny thing I did in the middle of class.
That's right, you have changed me.
And you will always be part of me, Fahrion. I whup anyone's butt if they dare ignore me when we meet after school reopens. I'll let you whup mine if I ignored you. This is just a beginning for all of us, a tough beginning it is.
PS: Do not strangle me if I yell "Hello!" to you from across the canteen when I see you in school. That's just how I am (:
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
