Friday, October 26, 2007 ; 9:21 PM {♥}
The last day of school flew by.
It was a day of fun, laughter, tears, headaches, sore eyes and more tears.
I went to school in a good mood. It didn't feel like the last day. But then, the graduation celebration came and it hit me as they kept saying "This is goodbye". Is it really just goodbye now? After all these time we've spent together, I do not feel that everything will all end with just a goodbye. No, this is just a new beginning, for all of us.
Even though I will not be able to attend the same classes as everyone and be in the same class like usual. Even though I cannot argue with Moch who keeps crapping constantly in front of me. Even though I can't kick her chair when I'm irritated and tease her about how she's so paranoid over results. Even though I can't hear Tongs and HangYin laughing at me and Moch as we fight. Even though I cannot fall asleep without Tongs noticing and later telling her off for not waking me. Even though I cannot hear Eunice and Charmaine singing a Lin Junjie song in the middle of class and turn back to join them. Even though I cannot turn around and crap about how Charmaine and Chih Siong are together. Even though I cannot hear Eunice squeal over Pocky and join her in missing MengMeng. Even though I cannot sit in my usual sit and draw anymore.
This is not the end.
Even though I cannot shout over to Jay Tee during lessons to comment about how Moch is killing me. Even though I cannot waltz over to Maureen and talk about how she shows favouritism towards Jay Tee. Even though I cannot laugh at Gillian and Tong's conversation. Even though I cannot make everyone laugh because I laughed too loudly. Even though I cannot make fun of Jinx and hear her talk about how she loves me. Even though I can't hear Yong Jing crapping about my "Goong". Even though I can't lend Sara anymore comics. Even though I can't step on Zongyi's feet anymore. Even though I can't get bugged by Richard. Even though I can't get poked by Yong Jing for not sitting in the right posture. Even though I can't call ShiKai good friend anymore. Even though I can't run to the parade square in fear of being late with the Birdies & Rockies. Even though I can't watch Moch finish off two plates of spaghetti with ease. Even though I can't be in two Fahrion anymore.
This is just our beginning.
Sure, we are all chargning towards our own future and dreams at full speed. But if spending the two years together just leads to ending friendships then what was the purpose? What was the point of us different individuals coming together as a whole? The point of coming to Fahrion was so that everyone of us leaves an impact on each others' lives. The point was to form a connection that wouldn't break easily and can never be forgotten.
We have achieved this, I'm sure.
The seperation is just a test for everyone. And even though I'm sure keeping our bonds safe won't be as easy as it had slwas been for us now, I know we can make it. That's because we will never be able to forget one another. I'm sure I couldn't forget Fahrion even if I tried. You have all changed me.
To tell the truth, I was never an outspoken girl. Shocked? It's true. I was timid and shy in the past even though I was rough with the guys, I never dared to really speak up. Instead, I just talked behind the shadows. But after joining Fahrion, everyone changed me. I wanted to talk, to share my views, I didn't mind embarassment anymore. I am able to talk and laugh loudly. Why? Because I have no fear of embarassing myself in front of you all. You know me and I know you all. Embarassment didn't seem hard anymore. We would ust laugh it off together as we retell some funny thing I did in the middle of class.
That's right, you have changed me.
And you will always be part of me, Fahrion. I whup anyone's butt if they dare ignore me when we meet after school reopens. I'll let you whup mine if I ignored you. This is just a beginning for all of us, a tough beginning it is.
PS: Do not strangle me if I yell "Hello!" to you from across the canteen when I see you in school. That's just how I am (:
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
Thursday, October 11, 2007 ; 9:39 AM {♥}
Well, I guess I can declare myself back from hiatus.
But really, being on hiatus didn't help me one bit. I was still playing around during exams so... you get the idea (:
You can't really say I'm happy over how I did for End-Of-Years, BUT, If you know me, you'll understand that being that happy-go-lucky girl that I am, I am unlikely to stay unhappy and queit for long. I want to scream, shout and play!
Yep, that's what I did yesterday.
First of all, I was going to school for my final exam but I was already bouncing around like some mad dog. I don't know why... maybe it's because I kept thinking "just two more hours and freedom is at my hand!" or something. So anyway, the paper was not that good but who gives a shit about that. At least not yet...
So... I went to have lunch with Bernice, Leroy and the last-minute-then-decide-to-come Kahmin! It was a choking lunch and when I say that, I mean it. All of us were noisy, sitting there at the cafe in the LIBRARY. And then, we were constantly laughing (apparently at me and Leroy and also a choking Kahmin) throughout our meal. Seriously, I thought my jaw was going to drop after so much laughing and it really hurt. Poor jaw... oh! and poor kahmin! She was choking really badly when I said "I think my jaw is going to drop". And then there were countless times when she tried to swallow but the food pieces were too big. Apparently, Kahmin's mouth is useless in a mechanical digestion. And to top it off, everytime she gets choked on a really large piece of food, she starts laughing and attracting our attention to her with food spewing out her mouth. And we all laugh again and my jaw hurt again and she says "Do you know why I laughed? It's because I imagine your jaw dropping out."
...
Kahmin is lame and thinks too much.
Then I went to Jay Tee's house! And when I came in Moch was playing her warcraft and screaming her head off. Oh, and Jay Tee's brother was screaming his head off at her too. Because he was trying to teach her how to play the Warcraft game. Yeah... so you can imagine the noise coming our of 1) the game itself, 2) Moch and 3) Jay Tee's brother. And I decided to join in the noise pollution with me and my wacky comments (: So... Jay Tee isolated herself for the whole day and I was running around between her and Moch. Moch was hugging the comp so I couldn't play my command and conquer. Lucky for me, I bought the fifth book of S.A club with me at compass point before coming up.
So... S.A club entertained me, and sometimes Jay Tee (she was interested when I started laughing like some lunatic) for quite some time. Then I got to play command and conquer but only throught the tutorial ): Because after that Moch wanted to launch a competition between her and Jing Wei (Jay Tee's bro) and they snatched the comp away from me. Jay Tee offered me the lappy but there's no command and conquer there... Then we had tea time snack! The pastries were good (: I wanted to eat more but I wouldn't be able to eat the yummy dinner later. But I still ate alot and at dinner time I was quite full and could only accomplish a bowl of rice. I loved the Bak ku Teh and the yuen2 sui1! So yummy :P
Then we watched Gundam Seed after dinner! but it was in chinese dubs... well, I don't really like dubs but I do agree that the chinese dubs are nicer than the english dubs. ENGLISH DUBS SUCK. Too bad I had to go after two or three episodes...
Conclusion: I was really tired at the end of the day.
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
