Wednesday, April 25, 2007 ; 6:00 PM {♥}
I feel this emptiness.
Inside of me, I fell hollow. I don't understand why but I realised that my reltionship with my friends are looking like they are one-sided. I just don't seem to understand this whole thing. I feel like I'm not needed within the group. As if I'm the one hopelessly clinging on to them. It is as if they totally do not welcome me or something. Maybe it isn't that they don't welcome me but that they don't mind me sticking with them but they are totally fine and might be even happier without me. Nobody wants to wait for me if I have something on but I'm always expected to wait for them when they have something on. Nobody cares about me at all, truly, they just dont't give a damn. And this feeling makes me want to just grab a wall to knock my head into and die a horrible death. Even if I did that, I bet they won't give a damn too. They will just walk over and give a scoff, then walk away again.
Then here's another question to ask, will anyone give a damn when I'm gone? I'd bet not. So I shouldn't even exist, I shouldn't even be wasting the air in the atmosphere by breathing it in. I should just die.
the sun is setting,
and at the end of the day,
I'm left once again, alone.
In darkness, as the black envelope me.
In despair as my shoulders sagged.
sobbing, uncontrollably as I released my emotions.
But then nobody cares.
I'm left alone on purpose.
By all those whom I thought were friends
But I'm alone and always
just've been clinging on desperately.
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
Wednesday, April 18, 2007 ; 6:12 PM {♥}
Anime of the month.
Prince Of Tennis
Sounds boring? Now worries, it's practically the best thing you can get. It is pretty much more realistic than Bleach and that kind of fantasy anime but... As you watch Echizen and company race up to the tops, you will be able to experience the excitement in tennis. As you watch the players perform their special skills that seem to be impossible to achieve you will be amazed at how tennis is like a bettlefield. Watch as they trick their enemies with different techniques, Momoshiro with his Dunk Smash, Echizen with his Twist Serve, Oishi with his Moon Volley, Kikumaru with his Acrobatic Play, Inui with his Data Play, Tezuka with his drop shot, Kaidoh with his Boomerang Snake, Kawamura with his Burning Serve and many many more. Watch them develop new skills and transform into the greatest tennis players! Go Go Seigaku!
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
; 5:38 PM {♥}
I've been wasting away.
So now I'm back with full power. I had a lot to think about. So this is how it feels...
It has been a great torture to think about next year. And there are two reasons.
Firstly, i have to leave 2 Fahrion and my bestest B&R clan. I just can't go on a day of school life without anyone of them. I can't feel normal without the ticklish Audrey, fiend-ish Jing Ting, and funky Mochi. A Fahrion has been a great class. We've went through boredom, fun, hyperness, craziness, mischief, lecturings and in a few more months, we would've went throught two whole years together. We might not be bonded, we might not be together, but for all we know, we will remember each other. Through ups and downs, we've travelled so far. We've shared tears, shared pain, shared bitterness but most of all, I'm thankful. For you have been a great class to me, and I hope I have been a good part of this great class.
Ahoy 2 Fahrion, let's set out on another crazy adventure. Each with all of us engraved in our hearts. Set sail for the new horizon, Fahrion! To do that, we will all need to work hard. We must peservere to stand on the top of the rest. We must perservere to keep good grades. We must perservere! Let us do it, and let our last mmory be the best, thank Fahrion!
And then, there's band. It has always been a huge part of my life ever since I've joined. Well, I have to admit, I've been loathing practice for the past few weeks. But now I'm fired up. I will bounce back, just wait and see. I don't want to be the only one sitting behind the corner and just supporting the rest mentally. I want to be out there, to do that, to be part of everything. And even if I might complain for all te hard work I have to put in, I know one day, I will be thankful for it. Band has been such a wonderful experience. And I would not bear to see our sec fours go. Please do not leave us, be it my wishful thinking but I still hope with all my might, please do not leave us! I didn't think that there will be such a day, when I will be wishing so hopefully as such, but here it is. I hope and wish and pray with all my heart. Please do not leave us!
-to Javier and Nicholas (The best seniors we've ever had. I'm thankful for the good teachings and fun you have given me)
Wasted in sighs,
My soul, plagued with fatigue
My eyes, blinded by loneliness
And as I stand, torn apart.
I got my my heart, broken
By you...
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
Monday, April 02, 2007 ; 8:16 PM {♥}
Intense Training, Success!
Today was the day of the planned intense training. And, according to the feedback... It was a success! Today, four songs were taught. Well, actually more like three and half short songs but at least it is an improvement and I realised that all of your notes improved while practising! Bravo! Everybody must work harder, kays? I told you it would be more fun with songs. At least it is more interesting to play songs than to just blindly repeating the whole scale. So... hope you really enjoyed today's training and you guys have really improved. Keep up the good work, dudes (:
PS: I bought your goodies already(: Shall pass it to you guys tomorrow. Enjoy the goodie and work harder!
I was driven nuts today.
And the culprit was chinese. Why were we forced to finish te damn thing in an hour? It is obviously impossible and the aftermath of said battle against the tough worksheet was all and members from 2 fahrion unable to attend sectional practice with a full stomach. Ah... Is Ms Zheng going to come back tomorrow? Actually, I hope not but I hope we don't all get as stressed as today. Here's wishing everyone a happy tomorrow.
Life is road that I wanna keep going, love is a river I wanna keep flowing...
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
