Saturday, June 30, 2007 ; 10:10 AM {♥}
Boy, I'm dead tired.
Yesterday made hell out of me and there were many tears shed in the process. Unfortunately, they were mine. Even though it was tough day for me, I found out really what I was all about inside and for once, I dared to tell others about it. My family and I had this little talk over dinner about how I'm feeling, how I'm thinking and all. For once, I dared to tell them, I'm actually like this and I don't really like being like that and that kind of thing. I now understand, what a great family I truly have. I know I'm truly a bitch at heart now. But I know, at least... I don't bring that bitch out in me and that's a good thing. Well, at least better than those who really put bitching into action. And even though I'm not perfect because I don't have a kind heart like I always wish I could have, I'm happy that I am me. If I were not me, I would not have this great family standing behind me, supporting me. If I were not who I am, I would not be standing here like that, being reflective of my actions and thoughts. If I were not what I am, I would not be motivated to become a better person and there would be nothing to learn in life anymore.
People grow as time passes, both physically and mentally. And even though I'm standing here right now, so imperfect and not I always wanted to be, I'm still growing. And I know, with a little effort and some reflection, I might be able to understand some of my wrong thinking and actually be able to accept what's right. Who knows, as time passes, I might become a better person than I am.
Only time will tell...
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
Wednesday, June 27, 2007 ; 6:57 PM {♥}
I shall take it slow today since there's not much homework except for the history and geography worksheet.
I went to Moch's blog just now and saw her list of to-do's before she dies. Maybe I should make one too :D
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The Great List Of Impossible Dreams Of JayJay.
Number #01: Master the wonderful japanese language.
Number #02: Migrate to Japan After Retirement And Live In Some Small Town With Hot Springs So That I Can Visit It Everyday.
Number #03: Watch Many Many Many Animes With No Subtitles After Going For The Hot Springs.
Number #04: Learn How To Play The Violin And The Piano And If Possible, Master My Trombone.
Number #05: Spend My Remaining Time After Retirement By Making Fantastic Japanese Food And Those Really Luxurious Cheese And Cream Cakes That You Usually Only See In Cafes.
Number #06: Constantly Hold Tea Parties With Friends And Serve Them The Gorgeous Treats I Make.
Number #07: Write And Publish A Really Nice Story Or Maybe Even A Book.
Number #08: Wear A Really Nice Wedding Dress Like The One Yuna In Final Fantasy X Wore And A Beautiful Kimono On My Wedding.
Number #09: Give Birth To Two Really Sweet Kids, A Big Brother And A Sister.
Number #10: Publish A Complete Series Of Popular Manga.
Number #11: Become A High Salary Journalist.
Number #12: If Number #11 Failed, Then I Wish To Become An Intelligent IT Professional With High Pay.
Number #13: Draw And Complete A Really Nice (*insert the title of the popular manga that I drew and published here*) Artbook And Have It Published.
Number #14: Don't Need To Worry About Financial Difficulties In The Future.
Number #15: Confess To Some Of My Relatives About How I Really Think That They Suck And Are Just All Bullshit.
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Well, that's pretty imposissible but... A girl can dream, right? A girl can dream...
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
Tuesday, June 26, 2007 ; 8:20 PM {♥}
ALL RIGHT, I'LL FESS UP. I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT PRACTICING MY TROMBONE.
There you go. That is my statement of the day. I am sorry for the laziness and right now my aching body is suffering the consequences.
LACK OF PRACTICE = PANIC FOR INDOOR TEST = RUSHING TO PRACTICE = FATIGUE
Wow, that was nice to know. And be glad, cause I've linked binbin :D and my tagboard is working normally again! Three cheers for that (:
I was really touched to see the birthday messages.
BIG THANKS TO THOSE WHO TAGGED THE BIRTHDAY MESSAGES. THEY WERE REALLY NICE :D LOVE YOU GUYS!~
Yep, and now, after spending two or three hours creating that kamichama karin new blogskin, I need to hurry to the bath and then start completing my homework. I don't want to confess for not doing them later, okay? Hope you like the blogskin cause Kazune is super handsome (:
AND REMEMBER TO WATCH "KAMICHAMA KARIN" FROM WWW.VEOH.COM !~
Sayonara Minna-san!~ Goodbye Everyone!~
Yours Sincerely,
June. Jingjie aka. JayJay :D
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
Wednesday, June 13, 2007 ; 8:11 AM {♥}
Lately, I've been thinking alot about band. I mean, really alot. It's been a very heavy stone set down in my heart, like a stubborn weed it stays there, not willing to budge. I am left to feel it's pressure against my fragile heart and I think that's what they call sadness. Sorry for getting a little too poetic here, but all I wanted to express was that it is a really depressing thing that I can't bear to watch my seniors leave. I was experiencing such emotions too, at the concert hall, as we were cheering our hooray. I just suddenly found that I couldn't cheer no more and I felt like laughing at myself. Since when did I become so attached to my seniors? I've always grumbled about them but then again, I now remember, it was always for laugh. It wasn't ro offend them and sometimes I don't really mean it.
I guess this sadness is here because the whole depressing issue is that they're leaving now, right at this moment in which I finally feel closer to them, closer to the trombones family. Back then, I always felt left out. No matter was it being ordered to practice alone in that lonely corner, or was it being forgotten during the important Singapore Youth Festival. I always felt that I didn't belong there. I was only close to Rumeng, and not the others. I could only watch them joke around with her and hear her telling me about all the things they did and told her while in my heart I was always wishing, wish they could say that to me or wish they could do that with me. I was always wishing so. And then during SYF, Rumeng started to get even closer while I got evermore left behind. And I realised, I really had to try to be more of myself and not that quiet, shy girl who's afraid that she'd say anything wrong in front of her seniors. So I tried, and now at least I could crack jokes with them and I got quite close to Nicholas and Si Hui. Well, maybe Nicholas didn't feel so but at least... ya know... he speaks to me more. I have to admit, I'm quite happy to this fact.
So now they're leaving, Nicholas is probably never coming back. I just can't imagine another sectional practice without him cracking his stupid jokes and making his lame comments. And I can't imagine it without Javier and his arguments. It was really fun when both of them were there, really. I really wish with all my heart that they can come back, to watch over all of us, and continue to be the best seniors ever.
Really, these are not a pack of lies so believe me already (:
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Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
Saturday, June 09, 2007 ; 5:24 PM {♥}
Lookie here, see what I found. Looks quite amazing, really. Shows how long ago they really are but who cares. They rock and so does Queen Symphony (:
Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
