Tuesday, December 30, 2008 ; 12:11 AM {♥}
Thank god for family :D
Recently, all that pent up stressed finally found its solace. After I blurted out everything to my family I feel so relieved! And not to mention how glad I was to find that they are behind me all the way.
I shall try not to bow down to her anymore.
My whole family just keep telling me how I should stand up to her. Put her in her place or whatever. Even my mum said she's a bitch. Like can you believe that?!
MY MUM said the word BITCH. It's like weird and funny to hear her say that. Okay, maybe she didn't really say "bitch", but she said the chinese equivalent of it, me thinks.
Oh no, I shouldn't say "me thinks" anymore because it's what that head girl Harriet keeps saying in the movie "Wild Child". Just finished watching it and it's awesome! Somehow, I think the guy is quite the hottie :D Good thing the female lead is a prettyface or it would be so unfair.
I realise that I do prefer British accent to American. It sounds good, no? Like how they would say "scottish" as "scott-ish". That's like so cute... in a weird sense.
Anyway, tomorrow's band activity will be really tiring. I DON'T WANT TO DO IT. I'M NOT FREE LABOUR!
I might just sue the band for child labour someday. It's killing me.
Labels: diary, sentimentals
Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
Saturday, December 20, 2008 ; 10:28 PM {♥}
Moch// BOOHOO. Then I can only say... HATES MOCH!
Wenlin// Of course luh! My mahjong mahs!
TongWei// I missed you man :D
Roy// Lol. Patapon gets boring after a while ._.
Nicholas// You should have thought about that before making me the band treasurer.
Dilys// LOL. I'm okay luh! I'm not the kind of person who will emo very long one.
KahMin// Aiyoh, you poor thing. Go and smack that bloody psp shop guy.
BinBin// LOOOOOL. BINBIN IS A SHORTY YAY! randomness -.-
Labels: rambles
Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
; 10:21 PM {♥}
Sometimes, I can't shake the feeling that I'm too easily influenced.
I could be dead sure about something for a moment and the next thing you know it, I doubt myself when someone tells me the opposite.
Like a river which flows into many directions, never knowing which one was the correct path. Would life be different for me if I didn't make those choices? I could believe this is the right way to go and when other people talk, I turn away towards the other direction.
Is that a good thing? Or a bad thing? It's as if the society conforms me. But then, I don't want to lose my sense of self. Will "I" fade away into nothingness?
I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore -.-
Labels: diary, sentimentals
Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
Friday, December 12, 2008 ; 7:15 PM {♥}
Did you ever wish you were another person, leading another life?
I just felt like that this evening.
I was walking down the road pretending to be another person again. Like I wasn't Zhong Jingjie. Wasn't a Singaporean. Wasn't a Dunmanian. Didn't play the trombone. Didn't live in Punggol. Didn't have a good friend turned bad. Didn't bitch about her after that.
And it's not like we all don't know what I'm talking about. But then again, I don't feel like Ms. Nice today and don't feel like doing that "Let's-put-on-big-fake-smileys-and-try-to-pretend-nothing-happened-although-we-all-know-the-world-changed"
Sometimes, it's so tiring doing something that you don't like. It's like reading a very hard book and trying even harder to make sense of those unidentifiable words that go on forever. Like trying to make any sense of why I'm even playing this game of pretend with you. Even when the whole world knows what the hell is going on.
Well, suck it up.
Because I can't put up this happy facade forever when I ain't no Elmo. And that's that.
Labels: diary, rambles, sentimentals
Yours sincerely, MS. JINGS {♥}
